Date: June 29, 2025

Purpose

I've been thinking a lot lately about purpose, and how I'll probably never achieve anything beyond struggling mediocrity in my life or in any field.

And tbh, I don't find that scary. I never really wanted much from life just the bare minimum.

I don't know where this mindset came from, maybe from my parents. They're pretty much the same way quiet, content, not too demanding. They kind of pushed that onto me and my siblings.

Anyway, I find the whole idea of needing to "achieve" or have a "purpose" usually tied to career goals or something like that kind of funny. It's wild how we try to summarize such a huge part of our existence into such narrow borders.

And I don't think a human life should be treated like that. To me, it's pure misanthropy(Fancy word++)

The human experience, in my opinion, is about framework. If we want to generalize, it's basically living through a worldview whether you choose it or not. Though, it's definitely better if you're aware of it; then, you might have some room to decide some stuff. That worldview is something you either reach yourself, or it's shoved onto you. Most people take it, and either they're too scared to challenge it or they just don't care enough to.

Maybe this whole idea of “purpose” and “goals” fits into that happy-ending worldview we grow up watching in hopeful, idealized media.

But the reality, at least based on my experience so far, is that human life feels pretty dull and repetitive. Maybe if I experienced more, I'd change my mind, but right now, everything feels kind of "meh."

It could be worse, of course, and sadly, it is for a lot of people. Maybe seeing life as "meh" is a blessing.